missing something ...

where is my motivation these days? the bloody mood keep going up and down ..floating like a boat ....that faces sudden waves ....I hate this feeling ....I hate it...what am i suppose to do to get rid of that?I think I need to find another new motivation in life ...Keep losing this and that .....harloooo...Benny boy ..where have u been lately ?u seems abit lost in the air ...floating like a boat ....doing things that u urself don really know and will do normally ...saying things that not suppose to say and missing things that u r not suppose to miss ...Gosh ...!!once is enuff and twice is abit more than enuff ...dont lost urself again ...u r not suppose to ...!!!

Finding the REAL me..

Sometimes when u r stressout..then you might just wondering where n what you are atcually doing on a daily basis...I think im losing myself out totally ....Cant find the real me ...Maybe I need sometimes to take a break and relax myself ....like physically and mentally ....cool down my mind ...not to stress myself out too much at work ...and also take a break if possible...sometimes just wondering why everytime when I lost something..I just went uncontrol in everything..Life...relationship ..money ...friendship and etc...Does that really the real me...people just seeing the surface and start judging me about my interior ...I hate the fact that why I behave like this and makes people thought of that.. Why cant I just be myself and forget about the others...Missing someone in your mind all the time will also make you stress-out too much ....Alcohol is a 'poison' in your life..drinking can really makes you forget things but what you need to suffer after is even worst....I hate hang-over feeling ...I hate being judged by the others for no reasons....excuses need to be avoided and I think what I really need to do is start to focus on my life again ...my life is a mess for what I see now even though I enjoy myself really much ..But I am losing myself too ...

Finding yourself and notify who you are is not the easiest thing in life...But thats the greatest test that you need to go through in life...meaning that I need to get back on my trackmill and start running hard and pushing hard for life again ..Not slacking back like what I am now ....

Joke of the day that I got from an Old man at work ..

Alcohol contains lots of woman hormon..

The more you drink ..the more bull shits from yourself..

and the more you drink ...the more careless you are while driving..

Might takes someone a while to understand that ...no discrimination against woman...ITs just a joke of the day from MAN ..and I presume that there might be more jokes about Man from woman anyway ..

Ben ..you need to find yourself and the world is your oyster....!!