missing something ...

where is my motivation these days? the bloody mood keep going up and down ..floating like a boat ....that faces sudden waves ....I hate this feeling ....I hate it...what am i suppose to do to get rid of that?I think I need to find another new motivation in life ...Keep losing this and that .....harloooo...Benny boy ..where have u been lately ?u seems abit lost in the air ...floating like a boat ....doing things that u urself don really know and will do normally ...saying things that not suppose to say and missing things that u r not suppose to miss ...Gosh ...!!once is enuff and twice is abit more than enuff ...dont lost urself again ...u r not suppose to ...!!!